(it would actually make me feel a little bit better if you took the time to read this. )
So today during lunch, I go outside as usual. I sit around a bit and speak with a few friends for a little, as usual, and all is fine. Then one by... well, a few, I guess (instead of one) theses said friends of mine walk over to one of the sewage-drain-whatever-thingys (the rectangular ones you can see under) and look down into it. Later I go check it out. A friend of mine catches up to me and says she wants me to come walk with her to "see the duckys". At first, I'm in complete SHOCK.
There were ducks down there?
Now, in an instant, I assumed the said ducks were baby ducks (as a more bizzare (yet still sad) sight would be an adult ducky trapped down there). But that's not really what I'm getting at.
I brush all thought of shock aside and decide to tag along with her and check it out for myself. I look down and all shock shoves itself back to me, HARSHLY.
Seven little ducklings, it appears to be. Pacing around, most likely scared. No mother duck in sight. It scares me. I start to worry for them. Seven little ducks out all alone, in the dark, wandering the wet and smelly sewer drains with no mother around, and nothing to eat.
Some of the students I didn't know in addition to these friends of mine were also looking at the ducks, and also very worried about them. I hear about one or two of the people in this crowd of friends and strangers trying to tell someone to get inside and get help, but worried as the rest of them are, no one listens, and a fraction of them try using their d*** cell phones and looking themselves for who to call for help on those d*** crap heaps.
Following this one, a later discovery is made as I follow some of these kids, we find that there's one other little duck ALL ALONE and unable to find any of the others. That upsets me even more.
And over all, what upset me the worst was this:
Hearing that from earlier, I could have done it! I could have done it myself. I was entirely ready to burst into the freaking door and rush up to the nearest freaking adult and panic about it to them. But something held me back. And it wasn't shyness at all. I was just a little too scared for their [the ducks'] sake to even move. Staying with them like I would any friend, just for their sake (even though I'd do the same [get help] for them if there was a time it was most needed (like today with the ducks)). In reality, even though I was worried sick enough to not only feel that I had to help, but to feel (without really knowing it) that I had to be there for them no matter what... I wasn't there for them by being there for them right nearby, standing, forever worried. It never helped them... As other animals who are unable to communicate with us, and as baby ducks, they would not understand what a sad looking and somewhat whimpering ( and eventually nearly crying, most likely) giant creature standing by them and keeping them company would actually translate as to them. So basically, that was no help. What was more important to me was their survival, and I screwed it up big time by just being worrried for their sake! Of course I didn't pay very much attention to what the rest of the worried bunch was doing besides what I already knew, as one or two walked off in a different direction and came back. I almost didn't pay attention to any of their chatter. I just... stood there and looked at them [the ducks] like a big idiot...
As I left, I could only hope that help had arrived. Some friends of mine stayed after lunch (most likely still trying to get help for the baby ducks or something of the like), I noticed when I looked out the window during my next class. And for almost ALL DAY , I've been worrying about those poor wandering baby ducks, especially the lost little one... And I've been being haunted by and upset over what I could have done, what I was just about ready and really close to doing muyself... what I never did because of the poor little darlings getting me worried SICK!
And still, upset as I am, I can only hope...

I'm really sorry for bringing this sad event up, but I had to let it all out. I hope you guys understand...